Faced

We live in a culture that makes us outcasts.
In a place where we don’t fit.
In a life that isn’t what it could be.
We learn to pretend it’s all OK.
We move through it as happy, functioning adults.
We keep the painful parts hidden from the world, lurking just below the surface.
The longer we practice, the better we become at it.

When we take those first steps toward a better life for ourselves, all the pain that’s sitting right below the surface starts to come up. It washes over our mind, a constant presence waiting to be acknowledged.But we’re not ready; we don’t want to face it. So we try to push it back down and we eat. Eating numbs the pain.

We go back to that life we found so much comfort in, the one we know so well, the one that is safe. And the pounds lost start coming back.We fall off the wagon.We are ashamed.We feel like failures.We convince ourselves this is just how we are meant to be.

Reality 2

Moon so bright
Sky show the beauty
Wind blow every angel of earth
My soul fly without wings.....

Earth always look at Star,
Feels like nearest,
But..........
Feels doen't show anythings....

Reality much cruel
Pain so sure to gain
But....
Minds control the games.....

Words inside night

When its the dark around..
This world seems to be sleeping around..
I go for a walk.
A walk through my thoughts..
Too many reasons for that !!
I know, I should have slept
But I cant stop..
Oh ! Please don’t stop
I need to think around,Am I leading my life right ?
I know I am driving through storm
Everything is lost..
I ask should I be lost too ?
Some part of me says Yes
But the other says No.
What to do.. Its a fight within !!
How to sleep its a fight within !!
So every night when the night sleeps
I am awake,
On a walk through my thoughts,
A walk through a battle ground.
Its not just thought..
But a walk through the battle ground..

The Aims~~

Well , after all only through bloger can express what is inside me, right now i feel everything was change. There's no one again in my deep heart. Its time the falling leave again and again. Outside still raining like understand my feeling.

Tomorrow something big will happen , anyway i feel like its have to be handle by wise action. After all, i have to face it by myself. I have to get back my strength again,  its has been far away i take the wrong path. Its time to get back. I have lost again. what ever it is, i need to get back eventhough is really painful.

Huuhhh...... take a deep breath, For the moment, i really can't understand why that person want to destroyed my happiness? Its really piss of me!... but I don't need to complain it again because its already past and complaining can't return back my happiness. Its really hard for me to build one happiness but its really easy to that person destroyed it. I'm not sure what the purpose it is to do such a shit to me. I keep thinking what going to be happen to my life.. I never find the answer. Its all about that person who really destroyed me.


I tried to forget on what happened but still failed to do it 100% .   I swear i will be surpassed that person, if not I will die in 5 years. I'll fight to the death....

Once

Once upon the time,this guy teach me how to live and yet i still cant understand fully.

Day of My Life

                          Day after day, my book of life fill in with the meaningful moment, some its bad memories but some its really sweet memories. What a shape of life, man... I always loved to stared at the sky during moon dance over the sky. Sky somehow bring all back the memories,  all is like flash back movie to me. Whatever had happened , i have to continue my journey until i can fly. It's doesn't matter if i have to walk alone because all way of my life, i always alone since she's gone. Wake up, man!!

                        Right now i feel like sorrow in the sky. There's several things always played in my head, damn it!! People will throw u away when u make the first mistake, i don't know what kind of mistake it is, for me its just my opinion cz only me fully understand my life. Well , i can't do anything about it, just hope forgiven will be given eventhough its not my false or just let it go.

                       One of admirable and respectful person was in accident last few weeks ago. Damn shit, man!! I really was in shocked and i tried to controled my emotion, but failed. Its really rare my tears for person i just know. Mean here, person who i cried for is the person had give big impact to my life. I hope this person will come back soon and togather we have a mission in company.

                      In  my work life, its really stressful cz my work is chasing time. Lucky I have a lot of person who really entertain and also one person fully accept me without throw any curious. This person also make my way of life totally different compared to previous life. Help me out any kind of situation, teaching me a lot things in life and treat me as family. This person really out of mind and its make people comfortable. I treasured a lot of this person as much i treasured my family.


                     CST is full with happiness, motivation and craziness. Its really make my life in office cheerful. CST have supported in my work and they really wonderfull team I ever met. Their team work is really uncomparable with others. They know how to use their head properly...kekeke.....I'm happy be with them in my organization.



                   Once my late beloved said, " love born happiness and sadness, its depend how we handle the situation to make happy ending". I love u forever and I promised i not forget u even i find the new love. U always in my heart.


' Life pushes you around. Each push is life saying, "wake up, there's something i want you to learn' - Robert Kiyosaki

Sun

There's always born new hopes