Saturday, November 20, 2010

Path

There is the road when u have to be alone, when everybody take their own path, this mean my real life just about begin. Tonight I can’t fall a sleep, there’s many things in my head/ in the silent night, brings me to the past, when I just started my life in Shah Alam. There’s a lot of things happened. I have met all type of people and all hurt that I never feel before. It’s really true when people said city is the cruel place living. Now, I completely understand the meaning of that statement. Now, I already finish my studies and in progress to internship. The time where’s I move into the real world and create my own future. This time , all my friend walk in the different road and find their own future. It’s kind a sad when have to take the different path, but we all must go on for our own good. I will miss them for ever and they left sweet memories for me.

I look the sky, there’s something sad appears. My late beloved always look at the sky when she have difficult situation. She said, the night sky make her calm and peaceful. I always remember what she said to me because she’s my ever treasure. I keep walk until the day where’s I achieved the success in my life. I’ll show to the world that I’m able to achieve my dream. The loneliness that I’ve been through makes me strong to survive.

Now I’m all alone, walk into my own path. I wish good luck to my friends and I hope we will meet again with power of success in hand.










Thursday, October 14, 2010

Losing again

Life....

It’s bears happiness and sadness,

Still, it’s remains in silent,

No one could understand it,

What life trying to say…

Hearts…….

Sometime feel like your own,

Sometime feels like stager,

Sometime feel wanna tears,

Sometime fell wanna laugher,

Sometime like a river,

Sometime like thirst,

And, it’s how its seems ,

Speak with your heart,

Listen to your heart,

Choose soul mate from the heart,

The world may say anything,

But your heart said your willing……

The smooth sound of the night, while I’ve my drink after finishes my revision, I feel some spaces in my heart, I’m tried to find out what it’s. I’m keep thinking and I think I know the answer, it’s LOSING. Owh , I’m laughing and said to myself,” the history always repeat on me, I’ve should know it”. Since I was kid, I always look at the sky when I depressed. The sky is so beautiful and makes people calm. Some people when they look the sky, they hope the person that they loved will look at too. It’s like the sky connected the heart even two hearts in different place.

Come on, I don’t need that feeling, when I achieved something precious in my life, there’s always someone will took it from me and left me a gift, Its pains . The pain that me suffer , the pain that always accompany me. There’s no one could understand my heart. There no one feel how hurt I am. Only one thing they saw through me, its happy face.

Sorrow of the night keep climbing, but I still can’t close my eyes. There are too many things playing in my head right now. Now I’m all alone, like my friend said, lone ranger. I still don’t know what should I do, I still thinking my next step……

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Love Desire Honesty Hurt

Eventhough you love someone, it’s doesn’t mean you have to be with them” that’s my friend said to me just now. I’m keep thinking about that, there’s the truth behind that statement. But mean you have to sacrifice for your love. Sometime destiny makes it happen. I look around, I saw there’s people hurt because the matter of trust. Love and desire is very different things, people should know it.

While I’m writing this blog, suddenly one song starts to play. The song is Ella- Pedih. I tried to listen this song, I found out there’s have people always hurt because there’s no honesty in relationship. Honesty is very important in any kind of relationship. Ask yourself, do you honest with ur lover, brother or others…….what I hope now the honesty. When we lied to someone, when that people know it by themselves, they will get hurt more and in such pain situation. Might be outside look alright, but inside the tears of blood.

Pedih

Artist: Ella

Bukan kecewa dipinggirkan
Aku kecewa tiada kejujuran
Bukan bersedih disakiti
Teramat pedih diri dikhianati

Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
Aku memilih berpisah di sini

Bila tiada kesetiaan
Tak mungkin teguh pendirian
Biar menangis di ketika ini
Tidak rela menangis
Kemudian hari

Hilang kekasih mungkin berganti
Yang ku harapkan teman sejati
Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
Aku memilih berpisah di sini

Ho..ho..ho..
Ho..ho..ho..
Teman sejati

Ho..ho..ho..
Ho..ho..ho..
Berpisah di sini


Tuesday, September 28, 2010

This morning












the dark cloud dancing everywhere, it's a cold morning....
feels very peaceful, the wind blow a fresh air ...
beautiful morning...

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Weird

Being too happy it's sign for lose something..people always said it.....Hmm ...I was very happy today, it's kind a weird things.. now I'm so scared and i know something bad will come... i hope i can handle it with calm...Amin...

话总说不清楚
hua zong shuo bu qing chu
该怎么明了
gai zen me ming liao
一字一句像圈套
yi zi yi ju xiang quan tao
旧帐总翻不完
jiu zhang zong fan bu wan
谁无理取闹
shei wu li qu nao
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
ni de shuang shou shuai kai gang hao de wei miao
然后战火再燃烧
ran hou zhan huo zai ran shao

Chorus:
我们背对背拥抱
wo men bei dui bei yong bao
滥用沉默在咆哮
lan yong chen mo zai pao xiao
爱情来不及变老
ai qing lai bu ji bian lao
葬送在烽火的玩笑
zang song zai feng huo de wan xiao

我们背对背拥抱
wo men bei dui bei yong bao
真话兜著圈子乱乱绕
zhen hua dou zhe quan zi luan luan rao
只是想让我知道
zhi shi xiang rang wo zhi dao
只是想让你知道
zhi shi xiang rang ni zhi dao
爱的警告(这警告)
ai de jing gao (zhe jing gao )

Repeat from beginning

我不要一直到
wo bu yao yi zhi dao
形同陌路变成自找
xing tong mo lu bian cheng zi zhao
既然可以拥抱
ji ran ke yi yong bao
就不要轻易放掉
jiu bu yao qing yi fang diao

Repeat Chorus and last 3 lines of chorus



Friday, September 24, 2010

The way....

Last night, I walked alone in the rain, I can see nobody there, its feel so quite, only I heard is the music every drops of rain. It’s feel like I’m the only one in town, the death town, Shah Alam. Now I feel so lonely, without anyone beside me.

There’s no one can replace the happiness I had before. May be it’s time for me be alone again. I know, there’s a lot of people surround me, but not each of them is sincerely. I have found it before, but it has been stole by person that always stole it from me just like before.

After the person I had being stolen, I’m feel there’s a lot of space between that person. Day by day, I can feel the distance keep increasing. What can I do?...............

I wake up this morning, I saw full message from my friends, include that person. I always hope that the times reverse again. I don’t wanna losing that person….

The sky becomes so dark, the light singing and dancing in the death city.

It’s prepared for the rain come to join them and

I, continued walk in the in the sorrow of the night.

Now only study can release me from trap in sorrow, lonely, and sadness that already have been placed in my heart. I need to be like always I do because I don’t wanna that person feel bed on what that person have done. So, I hope u always will be happy with the robbery.



Wednesday, September 22, 2010

HOPE?

Tonight, moonlight so blue, star keep smiling along with the wind dancing around. This environment make me so calm and peaceful. I can feel all living thing here gain a new strength, but...I still find where’s my strength gone. After a several years, I still fail to hold happiness in my hand. Everytime I had the happiness in my hand, suddenly it’s slip away. It’s just like my nightmare come everyday.

It’s hurt me again and again, I tried to continue my step back to the road. With all hurt and pain I had, I’m crying a lot, I’m shouting loudly, and I tried to act normal. I used all my strength to move my body,

"Aarrghhh…!!! It’s really hurt me now. Really hurt..... does anyone understand it?.It’s no one be there for me? Owh, I’m forget, now I have to accept the truth. The life that I created before, now it’s totally gone. Wwwhhyyyyyyyyy??????????.............." deep inside my heart.

It's already 1.00am, I could not close my eye. I'm looking through the window, the falling tears from the sky has started again. It's very quite night... In the dark of night, I can feel everybody already in their dream's world. Just only me left, waiting and searching the happiness nonstop. I feel really bad,really sad and really down on earth like every drop of tears does.

There’s people said that sometime our nightmare can become reality, but I still doubt it…I hope there’s still have a pieces of hope for me..







Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Sky still crying today

Today, the sky still in sadness and sorrow. Late afternoon when I was ride motorcycle, suddenly it’s raining. It’s very beautiful environment. Every tears of the sky drop on my body, it’s feel so cold. I slowdown my ride and enjoyed the rain. It’s just like the sky understand my heart, its crying when saw me crying deep inside my heart. I saw people running to avoid the rain, but me I’m not running because in my heart is already raining…..

I stared every drop of rain, “this is my life” said to myself. I can get everything, but my heart lonely day by day. Why my happiness always being steal?.... why when I in the middle of happiness, suddenly lose everything?...........

Hhuuuhhh…..I’m always think the answer, it’s there have true happiness or just everybody pretend there have happiness?.... now , I only bring myself to pretended world, I can pretend everything it all alright. May be I can forget what was happened lately. I keep cross my hand and I pray for all people that I love always will be happy. That’s all the last thing I can do…..