Faith~~

This song remind me to Carren, ”if the destiny want we be together, we will” . Take a deep breath and release its slowly. I have to accept it, she have gone for years, what we promise together, now its all left me alone. I’m the only one who lives in this promises and now I standing here as the person who can depends on. Thanks to my love u found me in the deep of the darkness.

Reality of being

*“It’s important to realize that we can’t successfully compete with everyone
that we facet whether in business or our own life*” By Jim Stoval

All time I have been through all kind of the trouble that come across, the
pain always I keep inside my heart. Today, I able to stand like people said
“useful person”. Suddenly I realize all journeys I have been through, all
pain I have been had, I’d take it by my own. No one stand beside me along
the journey. I miss so much that person who leave me too soon. That the
faith and I slowly to accept it.

The times runs faster than I thought………………………

“Haiishhh….cheer up kyle, people depend on you”, I scared to be alone, I
always help others with hope someone will remember my name. I just ask only
a little space. I still remember when I was kid, I always be alone, when I
wake up in the morning, there's nobody at home, I have no friend. My house
was lock from outside, I stared in the window and I see nobody. (long
story…)…..From that moment, I always scared to be alone. ..........

The tense always accompany me day by day, sometime it's bring me to the nightmare, i have to compete with people that have 10 years experience in that company. Everyday it is a war for me, cant let the time pass easily. .....just continued my walked till the end of the road...................

Early morning I wake up, “what will happen today?” …………..

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Ffuuhh ……take a deep breath……..there’s a lot want to write but I don’t know which one first. Hahaha..

It’s have been 2 month with my new company. I’m happy being here although the paperwork a lots, but it fulfill my emptiness in my heart. Well it’s good for me. I just wanna go outside, show the world that I’m capable to take world’s challenge. My mind set, I’ll be rich at 27 years old. Some people, money not important…then I said “Nnnaahhhh…~~~ don’t bullshit here. What the fxxk r u talking bout? eventhough love is needed, without money, how can person u love will live on?”..hahaha…well, that’s the truth, dude.i’m bet on it!!.......

Oh God, it already 7.30pm…gooshh!!..owh (relieve), I just check, I don’t have any appointment today…thank goodness. Well, maybe end of this year I’ll move on to the new place and my choice is sabah. Just wanna new life, new breath and new me. I keep improving my skill and keep searching the appropriate job that leading to my dream. I want to be just like Warren Buffet. It is amazing?...yeahh, I know…haha….i work hard to be like him and surpass him one day …I’m getting old everyday and I appreciate every minute. I also wanna marriage at 30 years old after I fulfill my responsibility to my family and my friend.

Last moment when I met my best friend before he went to the new job as manager at KL, that time, I said to my self, “at the end everyone will alone, it’s nevermind, people always come and go and the most important it, love your self and it’s help u a lot”. Then the next day, I woke up early and straight go to office. Somehow, I feel I get the new soul. Well my best friend fight for his future, and I’m also wanna fight for my own future. Just give the best shot!!..ooooyeaahhhh!!!

Well, guys, see u the next post…..pray for me,guys!