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Ffuuhh ……take a deep breath……..there’s a lot want to write but I don’t know which one first. Hahaha..

It’s have been 2 month with my new company. I’m happy being here although the paperwork a lots, but it fulfill my emptiness in my heart. Well it’s good for me. I just wanna go outside, show the world that I’m capable to take world’s challenge. My mind set, I’ll be rich at 27 years old. Some people, money not important…then I said “Nnnaahhhh…~~~ don’t bullshit here. What the fxxk r u talking bout? eventhough love is needed, without money, how can person u love will live on?”..hahaha…well, that’s the truth, dude.i’m bet on it!!.......

Oh God, it already 7.30pm…gooshh!!..owh (relieve), I just check, I don’t have any appointment today…thank goodness. Well, maybe end of this year I’ll move on to the new place and my choice is sabah. Just wanna new life, new breath and new me. I keep improving my skill and keep searching the appropriate job that leading to my dream. I want to be just like Warren Buffet. It is amazing?...yeahh, I know…haha….i work hard to be like him and surpass him one day …I’m getting old everyday and I appreciate every minute. I also wanna marriage at 30 years old after I fulfill my responsibility to my family and my friend.

Last moment when I met my best friend before he went to the new job as manager at KL, that time, I said to my self, “at the end everyone will alone, it’s nevermind, people always come and go and the most important it, love your self and it’s help u a lot”. Then the next day, I woke up early and straight go to office. Somehow, I feel I get the new soul. Well my best friend fight for his future, and I’m also wanna fight for my own future. Just give the best shot!!..ooooyeaahhhh!!!

Well, guys, see u the next post…..pray for me,guys!

Path

There is the road when u have to be alone, when everybody take their own path, this mean my real life just about begin. Tonight I can’t fall a sleep, there’s many things in my head/ in the silent night, brings me to the past, when I just started my life in Shah Alam. There’s a lot of things happened. I have met all type of people and all hurt that I never feel before. It’s really true when people said city is the cruel place living. Now, I completely understand the meaning of that statement. Now, I already finish my studies and in progress to internship. The time where’s I move into the real world and create my own future. This time , all my friend walk in the different road and find their own future. It’s kind a sad when have to take the different path, but we all must go on for our own good. I will miss them for ever and they left sweet memories for me.

I look the sky, there’s something sad appears. My late beloved always look at the sky when she have difficult situation. She said, the night sky make her calm and peaceful. I always remember what she said to me because she’s my ever treasure. I keep walk until the day where’s I achieved the success in my life. I’ll show to the world that I’m able to achieve my dream. The loneliness that I’ve been through makes me strong to survive.

Now I’m all alone, walk into my own path. I wish good luck to my friends and I hope we will meet again with power of success in hand.

Losing again

Life....

It’s bears happiness and sadness,

Still, it’s remains in silent,

No one could understand it,

What life trying to say…

Hearts…….

Sometime feel like your own,

Sometime feels like stager,

Sometime feel wanna tears,

Sometime fell wanna laugher,

Sometime like a river,

Sometime like thirst,

And, it’s how its seems ,

Speak with your heart,

Listen to your heart,

Choose soul mate from the heart,

The world may say anything,

But your heart said your willing……

The smooth sound of the night, while I’ve my drink after finishes my revision, I feel some spaces in my heart, I’m tried to find out what it’s. I’m keep thinking and I think I know the answer, it’s LOSING. Owh , I’m laughing and said to myself,” the history always repeat on me, I’ve should know it”. Since I was kid, I always look at the sky when I depressed. The sky is so beautiful and makes people calm. Some people when they look the sky, they hope the person that they loved will look at too. It’s like the sky connected the heart even two hearts in different place.

Come on, I don’t need that feeling, when I achieved something precious in my life, there’s always someone will took it from me and left me a gift, Its pains . The pain that me suffer , the pain that always accompany me. There’s no one could understand my heart. There no one feel how hurt I am. Only one thing they saw through me, its happy face.

Sorrow of the night keep climbing, but I still can’t close my eyes. There are too many things playing in my head right now. Now I’m all alone, like my friend said, lone ranger. I still don’t know what should I do, I still thinking my next step……

Love Desire Honesty Hurt

“Eventhough you love someone, it’s doesn’t mean you have to be with them” that’s my friend said to me just now. I’m keep thinking about that, there’s the truth behind that statement. But mean you have to sacrifice for your love. Sometime destiny makes it happen. I look around, I saw there’s people hurt because the matter of trust. Love and desire is very different things, people should know it.

While I’m writing this blog, suddenly one song starts to play. The song is Ella- Pedih. I tried to listen this song, I found out there’s have people always hurt because there’s no honesty in relationship. Honesty is very important in any kind of relationship. Ask yourself, do you honest with ur lover, brother or others…….what I hope now the honesty. When we lied to someone, when that people know it by themselves, they will get hurt more and in such pain situation. Might be outside look alright, but inside the tears of blood.

Pedih

Artist: Ella

Bukan kecewa dipinggirkan
Aku kecewa tiada kejujuran
Bukan bersedih disakiti
Teramat pedih diri dikhianati

Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
Aku memilih berpisah di sini

Bila tiada kesetiaan
Tak mungkin teguh pendirian
Biar menangis di ketika ini
Tidak rela menangis
Kemudian hari

Hilang kekasih mungkin berganti
Yang ku harapkan teman sejati
Sebelum kasih menjadi benci
Aku memilih berpisah di sini

Ho..ho..ho..
Ho..ho..ho..
Teman sejati

Ho..ho..ho..
Ho..ho..ho..
Berpisah di sini

This morning

the dark cloud dancing everywhere, it's a cold morning....
feels very peaceful, the wind blow a fresh air ...
beautiful morning...

Weird

Being too happy it's sign for lose something..people always said it.....Hmm ...I was very happy today, it's kind a weird things.. now I'm so scared and i know something bad will come... i hope i can handle it with calm...Amin...

JJ Lin Jun Jie 林俊傑-背對背擁抱 Bei Dui Bei Yong Bao

话总说不清楚
hua zong shuo bu qing chu
该怎么明了
gai zen me ming liao
一字一句像圈套
yi zi yi ju xiang quan tao
旧帐总翻不完
jiu zhang zong fan bu wan
谁无理取闹
shei wu li qu nao
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
ni de shuang shou shuai kai gang hao de wei miao
然后战火再燃烧
ran hou zhan huo zai ran shao

Chorus:
我们背对背拥抱
wo men bei dui bei yong bao
滥用沉默在咆哮
lan yong chen mo zai pao xiao
爱情来不及变老
ai qing lai bu ji bian lao
葬送在烽火的玩笑
zang song zai feng huo de wan xiao

我们背对背拥抱
wo men bei dui bei yong bao
真话兜著圈子乱乱绕
zhen hua dou zhe quan zi luan luan rao
只是想让我知道
zhi shi xiang rang wo zhi dao
只是想让你知道
zhi shi xiang rang ni zhi dao
爱的警告(这警告)
ai de jing gao (zhe jing gao )

Repeat from beginning

我不要一直到
wo bu yao yi zhi dao
形同陌路变成自找
xing tong mo lu bian cheng zi zhao
既然可以拥抱
ji ran ke yi yong bao
就不要轻易放掉
jiu bu yao qing yi fang diao

Repeat Chorus and last 3 lines of chorus