The Aims~~

Well , after all only through bloger can express what is inside me, right now i feel everything was change. There's no one again in my deep heart. Its time the falling leave again and again. Outside still raining like understand my feeling.

Tomorrow something big will happen , anyway i feel like its have to be handle by wise action. After all, i have to face it by myself. I have to get back my strength again,  its has been far away i take the wrong path. Its time to get back. I have lost again. what ever it is, i need to get back eventhough is really painful.

Huuhhh...... take a deep breath, For the moment, i really can't understand why that person want to destroyed my happiness? Its really piss of me!... but I don't need to complain it again because its already past and complaining can't return back my happiness. Its really hard for me to build one happiness but its really easy to that person destroyed it. I'm not sure what the purpose it is to do such a shit to me. I keep thinking what going to be happen to my life.. I never find the answer. Its all about that person who really destroyed me.


I tried to forget on what happened but still failed to do it 100% .   I swear i will be surpassed that person, if not I will die in 5 years. I'll fight to the death....

Once

Once upon the time,this guy teach me how to live and yet i still cant understand fully.

Day of My Life

                          Day after day, my book of life fill in with the meaningful moment, some its bad memories but some its really sweet memories. What a shape of life, man... I always loved to stared at the sky during moon dance over the sky. Sky somehow bring all back the memories,  all is like flash back movie to me. Whatever had happened , i have to continue my journey until i can fly. It's doesn't matter if i have to walk alone because all way of my life, i always alone since she's gone. Wake up, man!!

                        Right now i feel like sorrow in the sky. There's several things always played in my head, damn it!! People will throw u away when u make the first mistake, i don't know what kind of mistake it is, for me its just my opinion cz only me fully understand my life. Well , i can't do anything about it, just hope forgiven will be given eventhough its not my false or just let it go.

                       One of admirable and respectful person was in accident last few weeks ago. Damn shit, man!! I really was in shocked and i tried to controled my emotion, but failed. Its really rare my tears for person i just know. Mean here, person who i cried for is the person had give big impact to my life. I hope this person will come back soon and togather we have a mission in company.

                      In  my work life, its really stressful cz my work is chasing time. Lucky I have a lot of person who really entertain and also one person fully accept me without throw any curious. This person also make my way of life totally different compared to previous life. Help me out any kind of situation, teaching me a lot things in life and treat me as family. This person really out of mind and its make people comfortable. I treasured a lot of this person as much i treasured my family.


                     CST is full with happiness, motivation and craziness. Its really make my life in office cheerful. CST have supported in my work and they really wonderfull team I ever met. Their team work is really uncomparable with others. They know how to use their head properly...kekeke.....I'm happy be with them in my organization.



                   Once my late beloved said, " love born happiness and sadness, its depend how we handle the situation to make happy ending". I love u forever and I promised i not forget u even i find the new love. U always in my heart.


' Life pushes you around. Each push is life saying, "wake up, there's something i want you to learn' - Robert Kiyosaki

Sun

There's always born new hopes

Faith~~

This song remind me to Carren, ”if the destiny want we be together, we will” . Take a deep breath and release its slowly. I have to accept it, she have gone for years, what we promise together, now its all left me alone. I’m the only one who lives in this promises and now I standing here as the person who can depends on. Thanks to my love u found me in the deep of the darkness.

Reality of being

*“It’s important to realize that we can’t successfully compete with everyone
that we facet whether in business or our own life*” By Jim Stoval

All time I have been through all kind of the trouble that come across, the
pain always I keep inside my heart. Today, I able to stand like people said
“useful person”. Suddenly I realize all journeys I have been through, all
pain I have been had, I’d take it by my own. No one stand beside me along
the journey. I miss so much that person who leave me too soon. That the
faith and I slowly to accept it.

The times runs faster than I thought………………………

“Haiishhh….cheer up kyle, people depend on you”, I scared to be alone, I
always help others with hope someone will remember my name. I just ask only
a little space. I still remember when I was kid, I always be alone, when I
wake up in the morning, there's nobody at home, I have no friend. My house
was lock from outside, I stared in the window and I see nobody. (long
story…)…..From that moment, I always scared to be alone. ..........

The tense always accompany me day by day, sometime it's bring me to the nightmare, i have to compete with people that have 10 years experience in that company. Everyday it is a war for me, cant let the time pass easily. .....just continued my walked till the end of the road...................

Early morning I wake up, “what will happen today?” …………..

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