Bored

Today, Around 3 o'clock in the morning, feel so deym hungry. Then I ask along to accompany me having breakfast because I know he feel the same. Sen already sleep because at 8a.m, he have a class. I thought wanna go by motorcycle, but along said,"eemm, we walk, take the fresh air in the morning"..I just agree. From apartment ilham to mamak shop,we walk. around 700 meter. But i feel no tired. might be , morning environment make me more energetic. There's a lot we share opinion about life. I know he older 2 years old than me. He have a lot of experience. After all student life and worker's life very much different.

This sem such a boring sem because i don't have a subject. I don't know what to do. I'm still searching part time job, but here, it's hard to find it.
But if about life, I've learn a lot. Nowadays , I always wrote poem and create song's lyric. Which is out of my courses, but i like to do poem or lyric. Side talent..huhu..

It's almost 6 o'clock in the morning, still not feel sleepy yet. Hhhmmmm... I think next post I will post poem, wanna read it?..feel free to visit m blog..thnx

Keep Walking

Everyday is gloomy day. For me is the best day ever in the year. Raining day make me have a lot of idea to create a post. My friend ask me to create poem,so she can read it. She always like my poem. Well here is goes.....

Walked in the dark along the road,
Pieces of glasses everywhere,
Without shoes,
He keep walking,
He's bleeding,
He's hurt,
He's crying,
But,
He have to continue,
Continue until the end,
Along the road,
He met a lot of people,
Whose past by,
But Someone stop,
And seeing he's bleeding,
That person give medicine,
Endure his pain,
Teach how to walk proper,
Eventhough that person hard to understand,
Sometime make him hurt,
But because that person, make him become strong,
That person can't be stayed forever to help him,
He only can depend on himself,
So that he continue his journey
Pain, hurt, bleeding,still there
He keep continue until the end,
He tried to take all the pain,
Even now he keep walking along the road
The road that always hurts him......
tup..tup..tup...tup...

Alone

  Sometime when i'm are sitting under moon light, it's make me think what i've been through before. What hv i done to be stand here. I stil remember 18 years ago, when i wake up, I've seen nobody at home. ( last time my family have financial crisis before my mother remarriage) My brother and my sister going for school,my mother works. I'm crying a lot that time. I feel scared to be alone. Only accompany that time is cat. I don't know where it's come from, but it's make me feel comfortable. I always talk to that cat. It's very hard time for me.

I know my father leave me when i was 3 month old. My mother said, that time she's would give me to other person because conflict with my father. It's really be my nightmare the whole my life but i can understand her's situation. I've bad time during my growth. Feel so lonely.. In my family, i'm the only one who less words. I'll talk when it's necessary. Eventhough i'm like that, but when i'm at stages for my performance, whether singing, poem, drama and others, somehow i be brave and strong enough to do it. Might be stage the only place that i release all my feeling that i've keep for long since I know my truth. Pain all the time. No one could understand what i've been through.

Until now, I still can't forget what happened. The scars that never heal, but since that time, i really like cats. Sometime i'll talking to the cats because I believe, it's able to undrstand on what i'm saying. People always said,"past is the past". That's true, but what happen if your memories still remember it and thinks why ......

Eventhough in pain, I'll keep stronger to fight and win in the end....thanks to people around me, keep fighting togather. All my strenght, all my will be a momentum to win this fight because I know there's people sakes in my hand. I will make happiness for my family and my friend who's always be my sides.......

Life Goes On

Past few days, I'm not well and it's hard time for me. Yesterday is the last day Mr.Arman Soror in MSU. He's going back to his country,Iran. He's such a good lecture and very kind to me. I just can't forget when i become his first fren in MSU. There's something happened argue each other.  Since then, we closed. He always said" Kyle, smoke"...I always 'pao' his cigarette and he did same things to me . Once he said, "I wanna stop smoking today". Then the next day, he sitting at cafe, smoking. "eik,what happen the words from yesterday" i asked. He said could not afford it. I'm laughing at him, he's kind funny.. I hopes he's happy with his decisions. I always pray for him and i always remember his advice"kyle,add colour in your life"

At night, I went to basketball practice with Sendoh(farid). It's obviously i can't defeat him. He's too skillful and he have some experiences in the past, but it's really enjoyed when playing basketball. I wish, someday I will surpass him.hehehe...Like always, I'm checked the new anime manga online, suddenly he came disturb me, siting on table,  playing guitar. I'm not mad because he played it very well.The moment the played the song, I can't tell the different but he's pretty amazing...sssshhhh...Don't said it loud....hahahaha...

I'm realize , my life is all about learning. I learned from the person better than me and that's make improvement in my self.What i can do is learn the way of survive. If I know all these things, I can save many people from suffer. I've promise someone to endure the pain of 'this person' had. I will tried my best to fulfill it and I want 'this  person' having the happiness life. If I'm not meet this person, my life not worth at all. I've seen this person's tears when 'this person' told about 'this person' past. It's hard for 'this person' all alone. Since that day, I promised to help him whatever it's take, even it's take my life. I swear to the God......That's friendship.....

Lonely Night

Tonight is lonely night ,

Night just after cried and the weather still  cold and wet. 

The sky still dark.

Suddenly night heard the beautiful music sound  guitar singing. 

The night were touch by the song's played.

The wind still blowing 

Night feel lonely without star and moon which always be it's side.

Night become so dark, without the light by it's side.

The night stand alone and don't know what should do

.."why i being left alone?...where should i go?"..night still question him self.

From above, night see the quite and lonely city.

There's nobody down there. Again, night feel so alone.

Night begin glooming, the tears falls to the earth surface......

by Kyle Anthony

Gone forever...............

Once upon the time, I heard the story which is Hurt Losing. Losing someone such important in our life is the worse pain and leave scars in our heart that can’t cure forever. The story:

He’s regret when he’s not by her side when last moment her breath. He got a called ” hello, WHAT??? Impossible, she’s only on vacation with her family, not going for operation”. Then call from her sister, to tell the truth. Once he knows, there’s nothing he can do. He’s tried to calm, but he can’t take it anymore, ignore the pride and he cried loud like a little boy. His crying feel so much pain, hurt, disappointed, blamed himself.” why u leave me alone!!!?” he said. Nobody understand what he’s feel at that time. He keeps crying. He’s take out all the pain even he lost energy to stand. His heart broken in to pieces, he’s tried to hold it’s tied but he can’t. The time when he can’t do anything make he feel useless. The lost that he had is the bigger lost in he’s life. All the promised and all the happiness gone forever. The only left is memories that never leave. He’s realize that everyone have to go when time is come. He’s tried so hard to accept it. Every night he looked at the sky, feel so much lonely. Her face keeps appears in the sky, make him talked all alone (monolog), “how are u today, I hope you be ok, I promised to continue my life. I love you forever not a second I’ll forget u”. He keeps moving on and achieved her beloved’s dreams. He’s start to learned piano, then he decide want to leave Malaysia when he have a chance to do it. Until now, he feels the disaster just happened yesterday. But he keep continue to achieve that they dreams together. He believes, she always looking at him all the time. At the daylight, the tried to be cool and show how strong he is faced his faith, but at night, when looking at the sky, he’s crying a lot. It’s too hurt, even take thousand years, he can’t forget it, and no one know what he’s went through. Much pain left in his heart……………………..The End of story,

Since you gone,

My life so empty,

Since you gone,

There is a lonely heart,

Those memories togather,

I live it all the time,

Because I don't want you disappears,

I will remember you for all my life,

I always love you,

Watch me from above.............

Thank you....

Today was my last exam....ffuuhhhh, such a relief. Like always , all my friends come out with a lot of complains, I'm also joined too. hahaha...youth very beautiful after all. Then I straight going to Sendoh(farid)'s house. He ask me, how's the exam, i just said, ok je...then he continue watching the movie. I get in to room and take a bath. Suddenly i said"deym, so hungry". Since morning never eat anything. After finish my shower, straight open my laptop, check email and facebook. uuiisshh, today so a lot my friends  sending msg and email. I'm really happy. They are among friends that come to my life and never leave. Thnx everyone who concern about me. Then Sen come and sit in front his laptop. I'm asking,whether he had his lunch, he answer yes. "emm..tonight we going dinner a little bit early ,k"i said. He knew I'm not eat anything, then he said, "ok no problem,ko lapar, aq taw tu". His hands reached the guitar and play the song Cromok, I don't belong  here. owesome!!!... his continue play the song, i just listen while I'm doing my analysis about current market. Just simply do because I'm like it. Around 8.45pm, he asked, "what time wanna a going for dinner", "around 10pm" i reply..he asked to wake him up at 10pm Time is running so fast, I don't look at time, suddenly Sen wake up, "eh ,khai, it's already 11.30pm, why you not wake me up", he's sound like angry. I know he's not angry, but concern about me not eat anything since morning. He always threat me as his little brother. Then he said"khai, you should wake me up if you feel hungry. silent on my side...hahaha...since i be here, almost all the night he accompany me take a dinner eventhough it's late night. Sen2...if Carren here, she must be thnx to him. I hope he will have a good life after years he was struggle with faith. God bless you, Sen ...Amin..