Stand still

It’s still raining today, the dark cloud busy walking around. Through the window, I can see all living things in Shah Alam. The wind blow my face, it's feel so fresh but “why I feel so sad?” asking myself. I feel so much pain in my heart after a several years I tried to forget it. It’s all come to visiting and bleeding all the old scars. I’m laughing to myself, I thought the pain already left me , but the truth, it’s only sleep in deep in my heart and waiting to wake up. Now it’s time the pain to kill all happiness. The sincerely smile, the true happiness now's gone……

Once upon the time, there’s have one legend which is has stated that eventhough you care bout that person, doesn’t mean you have to own that person, it’s enough to see their happiness because their happiness is your happiness. It’s the greatest sacrifice in relationship and the greatest pain you have to take along with you because you will be alone to face the life.

The sky still crying, I’m still thinking…. But I don’t know what I’m thinking. Outside look healthy but inside, I feel something wrong. Its feel something that can’t be describe by words. It’s really hard to faced life alone, no one to be there for you. Everything is not enough to face the life alone. But I don’t have a choice. Do I will falling down to earth?.........

I’m realizing the truth, I not good enough to be with anyone. May be it’s my destiny after all. But still , I’m tried to fight it and I know maybe it’s useless and will hurt myself,, but at least I’m tried to change my life……

I’M STILL STAND STRONG EVEN NOW SO MUCH PAIN………..