There’s star in the sky after the rain stopped. it's a cold and beautiful night. My mind flow away and I know I will lose again the important person in my life. I don’t know why I feel like this. There’s nothings will be forever. Not everything we want, we will get it. It’s not that easy because the sacrifice will be there. All pain, all scars, start bleeding again…. Now, I hope will fill my last moment with happiness. Raining in my heart will never stop, but I have to stand strong to realize my dreams.
No. no… I still have my love which always watches me from the sky. “What I’m supposed to do, carren? Do I have been cursed that all people I love leave me behind alone?” speak to my self in the dark. Its feel like autumn leaf, have to leave the trees because it’s time to leave. The leaf will miss a lot the moment that being together with trees. Eventhough the leaf wanna stayed until the end of life, but its can’t afford it. That moment make me realize about there’s nothings will be forever. I’m tried to doubt it, but in the bottom of my heart, I know it’s the truth.
Last few month, I was very happy, for the first time after so long I never feel so energetic and real smile on my face. It’s wow!!... I know from beginning it’s only temporary, but I feel the happiness in my life even it was short. With all promise I made that never leave me alone just wanna make me feel better. In my deepest heart, I realize it’s impossible to do so. But I’m still fighting for it eventhough I know I will hurt in the end…At that time, I will leave everything behind, I will disappeared from their eyes. I will take my heart go far away from here ………..
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